Far Away...

I will not be posting new updates for this upcoming few weeks...being busy and always busy! got to prepare for an audit at camp...prepare for EX HIGHNOON...and blah! blah! blah!...it's so busy that i don't even care what is happening around me...Have a great time 30min ago! went for a karaoke session with my peeps...they really help me alot to forget my past, thank peeps! haha! but the best news is yet to come!

The news was...I was invited to be a weekend lecturer at BMC ACADEMY...wuhoo! Good pay for a weekend job and a stepping stone for me on my teaching path...Thank you so much! Thank you for believing in me! Everything happened for a reason, and i think all my hardship that i go through for this few months really show that if you are truthful to yourself, you will be granted with best wishes! Ini semua HIKMAH yang diberi oleh tuhan...tuhan akan selalu menjaga orang yang tidak bersalah and jujur pada dirinya sendiri...alhamdullilah!

Gong Xi Fa Cai

I was sick since Sunday night...eating panadol, playing sudoku and turning around all night at my bed...the cough is killing me! haha! Monday! Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! and in return happy reunion of my families...We went for a picnic at East Coast Park and it's jammed pack with people of different characters and sizes...Spend the whole 2 days at my aunt's home and it is a splendid days talking about the future of all my cousins...but when it came to me, it's all about marriage! I guess they have really accept Nurulhuda as part of their family but they still don't know the real hard time that I'm going through now...but stay strong and don't show any weakness in front of them...The only reason that i gave was give more time, but i guess the time will never even come at all in the first place...I have a plan and will stick to it! Just pray hard that it'll be a successful journey for me and for the long period of time, I'll put love relationship aside and focus on myself...Tomorrow will be back in the green cameo coverall and the blue toolbox! Start working as usual...

Wonderful Weekz

woo! it been almost a week since i last post an entry...a lot to talk and a lot to see...been a wonderful week for me even though works have been piling up like mad! spend most of my incredible time with my friends and got to know even more new friends in return...look like my circle of friends is getting bigger and bigger! great! having a CNY celebration last friday and it all turn well...what a good plan out that everything went smoothly...from oranges to paper bags to booking of movie tickets! i'm proud of myself actually...but this hectic workplan didnt stop me from spending my valuable time for my friends and family which i miss so much for the past 5years...they have been so supportive to me and i know i'm going to be even much stronger and clever in thinking...

Today, i went to my late dad's grave...it been 14months since he left us, and the lost of him still linger and affect the way of our life...I made a mistake of my life and i cried! if only I do listen to him in the first place, i wouldn't be regretting the way i am right now...but life have to move on and there so many interesting things to look forward in my future...i have promise myself to think abt me and only me! upgrade myself! be a much more better man! so oneday that person will know he/she had made the biggest mistake of his/her life! and i bet he/she will...!

Monday Blueeee....

What a pathetic day! woke up and have that dizziness all around me...but force myself through to work and BANG! More works...more & more works...gosh! i don't know when it gonna stop! in total i have to inspect almost 15 Man 5Ton Truck...I have another 15 more to go...Haiz! quite busy for this few days, but it a good sign cause i will be occupying myself with tons of work and outing...that the way to start my new life and hopefully i can go through all this safely and happily...Only god knows how i feel right now but i know he will help me...He will help me for my own good...

PS: what will i do after my NS? that what i had been thinking for the past few days...to go to NTU
or NIE? only time will tell...

Work & Work

Morning weekend have to wake up to go to work...the first time ever i had to work during my weekend at camp but overall it was a fun and fast way of jobs...no disturbance and silence around the camp...The day before had an hectic day going to Simpang Bedok for dinner with campmate before heading to Pasir Ris Beach just to sit down and relax...Today we as a family celebrate my elder kuzzin 25th birthday! by the way Abang Akram, i wish that you will get marry sooner than later...haha! was a fun day spent with all my blood-related loving family members...we even had a cake fight where the old and the young just smash the cake at one another...as always, i was the worst one! haha! today was a very meaningful day for me to know that whatever happened in life, we should always remember that our family members will always be by our side throught thick and thin...i am deeply appreciated myself to be born in this family of fun and laughter...

Rendezvous Hotel

After work today, went straight to Rendezvous Hotel with Suhaimi to meet up with Farhan & Aishah for a dinner at a so beautiful high class Turkish Restaurant...The service was tip-top! i dont know why all the three of them is craving for turkish pizza, but it smell good thou...As usual i will be ordering something different, the dish was called "Balik Tika", a mix seafood dish with pasta...100% SUPERB! haha! it worth every penny! Have a great day today with friends...and i just hope that i can do this all day...sorry! there no photos to showcase cause i wasn't with my baby today...

P.S: Taking my time step by step....

Time To Be Alone!

Will update the blog sooner...Having a hard time outside to suit the new environment around me!

Mishap!

Yesterday was my company family day.....where all the family of the army around my formation gathered to have fun...i was in a very good mood, trying to forget all that have happened to me for the past few days...but it all change totally! i just stop laughing, i never eat, i went totally silent...Only God knows why i suddenly have that sudden change of feeling and emotion...God gave me the answer that i had always been waiting for, maybe behind all the suffering that he test me...he still give me strength and the truths to carry on...For the whole night, i been giving a fake smile but deep down me, i do feel sad...hurt...dissapointed...i guess, this is life!

God...Please close my heart for her and let me carry on my life as per normal! Show me that i am someone special than what i am today...show me that i deserved to be love by someone who will appreciate me and tolerate my behaviour....i know she is somewhere out there, and i will wait...Behind all this mishap, i do hope that i will always have a good heart to continue feeding my family...

It's been 4 days

96hours of despair but maybe it's all worthwhile...it's been 4days since i last contact her and i don't even know whether i will be contacting her ever again...it's a hard time for me but life have to move on, after a good advices from someone who i really respected...i have decided to leave her alone and let her fly for her freedom...maybe the time have come after 5 long years of relationship that i have to accept the fact that we are not meant for each other...it's so difficult to handle that till now i never even had a good sleep for even one day, maybe what people say is true! if you really do love someone then let her go and see her happy cause watching the smile from someone you ever loved will surely bring the happiness deep in your heart...After a long 60 months of relationship, all i have to say now is thank you so much for giving me the happiness and support which i'll always cherish....and good bye...

To who she is,
It is my fault that we had the fight when we just shared our happiness and laughter together in the earlier part of the day, once again from the bottom of my heart...i'm deeply sorry! You will always be in my heart and will always be remembered by me...best of luck for your future and i'll pray for your success....have a good life out there and hopefully you will find the guy who will love you more than i do! Good Bye Nurulhuda Binte Jamil....this is a once in a life time journey that i shared with you and will always be remembered by me for the rest of my life...I LOVE YOU & WILL ALWAYS DO!

HAIZ!

It all went wrong for me in this year 2009...almost all my resolution gone in a split seconds...i hate my life! really! i hate my life......

2009! More Stories & Excitement!

2 days after New Year...ha ha! the YEAR OF ORD! wuhuuuuuu!

Resolution

* To be the better sole bread winner of my family
* To be someone special to anyone
* To wait for 18th MAY for love
* To wait for 25th OCT for freedom
* To enroll for NATIONAL INSTITUTE OF EDUCATION
* To loved & be loved especially NURULHUDA BINTE JAMIL...

Having my leave today to follow my brother to his new found school...haha! not to be the kepo of the day by following him but to seek for help from the management in financial way...whatever happened! if you got the chance to grab the help...grab it! cause you deserved it!