Mishap!

Yesterday was my company family day.....where all the family of the army around my formation gathered to have fun...i was in a very good mood, trying to forget all that have happened to me for the past few days...but it all change totally! i just stop laughing, i never eat, i went totally silent...Only God knows why i suddenly have that sudden change of feeling and emotion...God gave me the answer that i had always been waiting for, maybe behind all the suffering that he test me...he still give me strength and the truths to carry on...For the whole night, i been giving a fake smile but deep down me, i do feel sad...hurt...dissapointed...i guess, this is life!

God...Please close my heart for her and let me carry on my life as per normal! Show me that i am someone special than what i am today...show me that i deserved to be love by someone who will appreciate me and tolerate my behaviour....i know she is somewhere out there, and i will wait...Behind all this mishap, i do hope that i will always have a good heart to continue feeding my family...