Work & Work

Morning weekend have to wake up to go to work...the first time ever i had to work during my weekend at camp but overall it was a fun and fast way of jobs...no disturbance and silence around the camp...The day before had an hectic day going to Simpang Bedok for dinner with campmate before heading to Pasir Ris Beach just to sit down and relax...Today we as a family celebrate my elder kuzzin 25th birthday! by the way Abang Akram, i wish that you will get marry sooner than later...haha! was a fun day spent with all my blood-related loving family members...we even had a cake fight where the old and the young just smash the cake at one another...as always, i was the worst one! haha! today was a very meaningful day for me to know that whatever happened in life, we should always remember that our family members will always be by our side throught thick and thin...i am deeply appreciated myself to be born in this family of fun and laughter...

Rendezvous Hotel

After work today, went straight to Rendezvous Hotel with Suhaimi to meet up with Farhan & Aishah for a dinner at a so beautiful high class Turkish Restaurant...The service was tip-top! i dont know why all the three of them is craving for turkish pizza, but it smell good thou...As usual i will be ordering something different, the dish was called "Balik Tika", a mix seafood dish with pasta...100% SUPERB! haha! it worth every penny! Have a great day today with friends...and i just hope that i can do this all day...sorry! there no photos to showcase cause i wasn't with my baby today...

P.S: Taking my time step by step....

Time To Be Alone!

Will update the blog sooner...Having a hard time outside to suit the new environment around me!

Mishap!

Yesterday was my company family day.....where all the family of the army around my formation gathered to have fun...i was in a very good mood, trying to forget all that have happened to me for the past few days...but it all change totally! i just stop laughing, i never eat, i went totally silent...Only God knows why i suddenly have that sudden change of feeling and emotion...God gave me the answer that i had always been waiting for, maybe behind all the suffering that he test me...he still give me strength and the truths to carry on...For the whole night, i been giving a fake smile but deep down me, i do feel sad...hurt...dissapointed...i guess, this is life!

God...Please close my heart for her and let me carry on my life as per normal! Show me that i am someone special than what i am today...show me that i deserved to be love by someone who will appreciate me and tolerate my behaviour....i know she is somewhere out there, and i will wait...Behind all this mishap, i do hope that i will always have a good heart to continue feeding my family...

It's been 4 days

96hours of despair but maybe it's all worthwhile...it's been 4days since i last contact her and i don't even know whether i will be contacting her ever again...it's a hard time for me but life have to move on, after a good advices from someone who i really respected...i have decided to leave her alone and let her fly for her freedom...maybe the time have come after 5 long years of relationship that i have to accept the fact that we are not meant for each other...it's so difficult to handle that till now i never even had a good sleep for even one day, maybe what people say is true! if you really do love someone then let her go and see her happy cause watching the smile from someone you ever loved will surely bring the happiness deep in your heart...After a long 60 months of relationship, all i have to say now is thank you so much for giving me the happiness and support which i'll always cherish....and good bye...

To who she is,
It is my fault that we had the fight when we just shared our happiness and laughter together in the earlier part of the day, once again from the bottom of my heart...i'm deeply sorry! You will always be in my heart and will always be remembered by me...best of luck for your future and i'll pray for your success....have a good life out there and hopefully you will find the guy who will love you more than i do! Good Bye Nurulhuda Binte Jamil....this is a once in a life time journey that i shared with you and will always be remembered by me for the rest of my life...I LOVE YOU & WILL ALWAYS DO!

HAIZ!

It all went wrong for me in this year 2009...almost all my resolution gone in a split seconds...i hate my life! really! i hate my life......

2009! More Stories & Excitement!

2 days after New Year...ha ha! the YEAR OF ORD! wuhuuuuuu!

Resolution

* To be the better sole bread winner of my family
* To be someone special to anyone
* To wait for 18th MAY for love
* To wait for 25th OCT for freedom
* To enroll for NATIONAL INSTITUTE OF EDUCATION
* To loved & be loved especially NURULHUDA BINTE JAMIL...

Having my leave today to follow my brother to his new found school...haha! not to be the kepo of the day by following him but to seek for help from the management in financial way...whatever happened! if you got the chance to grab the help...grab it! cause you deserved it!